PUERTO RICO LAUNCHES CAMPAIGN AGAINST

DEATH PENALTY

January 23, 2008: Puerto Rico's justice secretary said that his department will do "everything in his power" so that the US federal government will not institute the death penalty on the island, or impose it on Puerto Ricans in the mainland United States. Accompanied by representatives of the Puerto Rican Coalition Against the Death Penalty, Roberto Sanchez Ramos announced the implementation of a series of measured recommended by that organisation to dissuade the federal justice system from using the death penalty in this US commonwealth. Puerto Rico prohibits the use of the death penalty in its 1952 constitution as a Free Associated State, but the island's courts are subordinate, in the final analysis, to the federal courts. Sanchez Ramos said that the most important of the measures announced will be the one referring to cases of carjacking as a crime that could be punishable by death. In these cases, the federal prosecutors request that the state not try the accused because they want the case to be tried in federal court, where the death penalty can be sought. To prevent that, the state Justice Department ordered all its prosecutors not to halt their prosecutions of the cases in local tribunals unless the federal justice system guarantees that it is not going to request the death penalty. In a like manner, it will try to prevent the extradition of Puerto Ricans to other US states where the death penalty could be requested. Sanchez Ramos said that the death penalty as a punishment was "unnecessary and, in the final analysis, immoral." (Sources: EFE News Service, 24/01/2008)

Years ago this seemed like only a dream. But as the days pass it's as if the sleeping giant is slowly awakening. The struggle is bigger now, I believe than it has ever been in history.

I actually just recently found out that Puerto Rico abolished the death penalty in 1929. I couldn't believe it. When I first started fighting for prisoners rights people thought I was crazy. When I began speaking out for death row prisoners I was looked at like I was the enemy.

In my heart I knew what I was doing was right the right thing for the innocent on death row, as well as the guilty. I didn't need any reassuring that I was doing the right thing but God sent it anyway. I was invited to Italy to speak and perform on behalf of death row prisoners. I learned that Italy was the leading contender in fighting to abolish the death penalty. I was in complete awe. An entire counrty opposed to the death penalty. OK of course there are some pro-capital punishment citizens but they are few.

Being in Europe I also learned of all the other countries that have done away with capital punishment. If I did need any reassuring God made do let me tell you. It was very empowering to learn that my little point of view was shared by millions of people. As I spoke about Europe everywhere I went in the US people listened. The battle to abolish the death penalty raged on.

I still found my self faced off with pro-death penalty advocates, I just had a lot more ammunition now. I did not need any more re-assurance that I was doing the right thing. Teaching about forgiveness, fighting to save human lives, bringing hope to those on the row I felt I was doing right. But God once again just went out of His way. I find out that my people are against the death penalty. Why I never looked into this before as I did my extensive research is beyond me but I am glad I over looked it till now; it made the blessing all the more glorious.

I was always proud to be Puerto Rican and of Arawak decent. Even more so now, I am very proud. I was putting together plans to travel to Puerto Rico for medical reasons when I came across this article right here. I have to say I was filled with doubt about going to Puerto Rico until I seen this. I guess this is why I didn't find out earlier on, it was to be used to convince me to travel on to Puerto Rico as I am doing.

Sometime towards the end of this month I will be landing in San Juan. I plan on staying for an extended period of time and will be seeking out any and all organizations that are geared towards the fight against the death penalty. I will strengthen my army. Viva Puerto Rico. Amore De Rey!

Anthony Cardell Haynes 29, currently on Texas Death Row.

I was introduced to Anthony or Ant as I call him in 2006. A mutual friend introduced us. I had never written to anyone on the row. I write to a lot of prisoners so it in fact wasn't really that difficult to sit down and write Ant. I treated him like anyone I treat first go around even in the free world. I proceed with caution. That's one aspect of prison life that has been embedded into every fiber of my being, I struggle with the ability to trust. When your own people put you in chains, persecute and ridicule you, throw you in a cage and treat you like an animal for years I think it is understandable that one may have some trust issues.
My first letter to Ant was about two lines long. He responded the same way. I shot him back about one full paragraph. Again I got the same in return. But it was enough for me to sense something about Ant so I wrote him a full page. A couple of weeks later Ant sent me about a six or seven page letter. It smelled of realness. I never read a letter with so much honesty in my life. Without saying it in words I can feel this brotha was sorry for what he had done. Don't get it wrong now, Anthony is a warrior. He was in the military for a brief moment. He went through the ROTC training program throughout high school. I have seen ROTC training photos. Young men in full combat gear armed being trained to kill or be killed.


I identified with Anthony from the door. I know all to well what life on the streets is like. Much like life in prison unless you experience it first hand, you will just never fully understand unless you are very patient, open minded and compassionate.
I answered Ant's long letter with a long letter. Though Anthony was never big on writing men we just clicked we became comrades in the struggle. Within a few letters Anthony was like the younger brother I never had. I say younger only because of the age factor. On an intellectual level, Anthony has taught me more than a lot of people that have come through my life.
One of the first things that stood out writing Anthony was his honesty. His honesty is a rarity in this world. He never once tried to deny or down play what he did. He stated clearly from the beginning I am here because I killed a man. I sat back and remained silent and listened to this young man tell me his side of the story, something I feel someone with the power to save this young mans life should do. I found no reason at all to doubt him. Some may think well he's a convicted killer and he will say anything to get out of being executed. That's one way of looking at it. I saw as he was a convicted killer waiting to be executed so he had no reason to lie.


I have sat and talked with, hung out with, and have sat down and eaten with a number of killers in my life time. Some were convicted and some have never been caught. I think I qualify to say Anthony Cardell Haynes is light years away from being a cold blooded killer. I know cold blooded killers and Ant is not one of them. Anthony is no different than the guy living next door to you. He is no different than the guards that watch over him. Well, he's different but only in one sense, he got caught doing what he did. That's the only difference. If Anthony was the type of man that never once in all the years he has sat in a cage wished things had played out differently, I wouldn't be writing this story in his behalf. The fact is I trust Anthony has wished this thousands of times in the past ten years.
Anthony was young and very confused. Looking at his life leading up to his being condemned to die it was obvious something was not right in his young life. He made some bad choices as a result of his confusion, choices that led him to being where he sits today, on Texas death row. For the past ten years Anthony alone in a cage with nothing more than brief encounters with older prisoners has raised himself into an intelligent man.


A scared, confused, troubled teen was convicted of capital murder. But that's not who is going to be executed. This is not that same confused kid from back in 1998. This man has a lot of worth to society. His experience can make a big difference with youth in today's society. Anthony has incredible incite and he's very open to share. He is who fuels my fire in the fight against the death penalty. Every case does, every prisoner does but in Anthony's case it's highly combustible. I identify with him so much I clearly see that it could have been me sitting there where he is. I think I am not because God felt it would be to much for me to handle. Incredibly Anthony is handling it pretty well which brings me to the next reason why I am so drawn to Ant.
Never in my life have I ever met a human being with such faith as Anthony holds, this includes priests and reverends. I am sure many men that have been executed have excepted their fate without blinking an eye. But Anthony is not machismo or cocky about it not at all. He just calmly states if it is Gods will for Him to die, then he excepts it. He leaves it in Gods hands. His words are very powerful and heart felt.
I am nothing more than a jail house lawyer. I am not even a qualified paralegal but I have been in and around the justice system for over 20 years. I have heard hundreds if not thousands of cases and have read a number of cases in law libraries. I have looked into Anthony's case, and yes he has a legitimate case that should be looked into and heard. Understand that I am in no way trying to disrespect the family of the victim trust me my heart goes out to them along with my prayers. In a nut shell I am at best trying to stop more victims from being made here. I don't see the good in killing this young man at all. I found relief in fighting to understand why this tragedy took place. A lot of good could be done with understanding why this happened. Every occurrence in life holds valuable lessons. Killing young men that made a grave mistakes is discarding the lessons totally.


What confuses me the most about our country is how we come off as this God fearing nation. We have more church's than I can count in a life time. There are actually 27 church's from Polunsky Unit in Livingston, Texas where death row prisoners are held, to Huntsville about 45 miles away where they are executed. 27 church's. Bibles differ but all pretty much say the same thing. Why doesn't anyone else get it? Jesus was an innocent man that was executed. OK now we know He had to die for all of us to be forgiven. So God knew beforehand that the people would indeed turn against Jesus and persecute Him. Living my life, seeing the way people are in this world, I can see why God bet this one would play out without falter. The moral to the story is forgiveness, something I don't see often here in the US. This is where the healing and the power lies. For the family of the victim I know it seems impossible, to forgive. But it's not impossible. God said the way to heaven is the narrow and most difficult path. The easy route is being angry and wanting blood for blood. This is the same behavior gangs partake in on the streets. You kill one of ours, one of yours has to go then. It's never ending. The healing is within forgiveness.
Anthony's case is clearly not a capital case according to Texas law. It was made into a capital case due to the fact the victim was an off duty police officer. Again please understand I am not taking away from the victim. I would just rather see him honored and remembered with forgiveness and not with revenge. Anthony is a different person. He felt his life was in danger. This does not excuse the fact that he had an illegal weapon and used it and killed a man, but it is a beginning to understanding. A lot can be learned from this case. Like looking at why a weapon can be so easily obtained on the streets. Looking into the months leading up to the incident a lot of valuable information can be gathered in talking with Anthony to help prevent a young man from walking down the same path missing every warning sign. I am not questioning the victims actions, but things can be learned for the future here as well. Like maybe off duty police officers should not pursue potential perpetrators. They should get their plates, and call it in. This would be called corrections. Trying to fix something very wrong that happened. Disposing of another human life just kills a little bit more of the possibility of us ever becoming a truly civilized society.

Love conquers all. I have heard this throughout my whole life. I just never seen it practiced. I see a lot of hate, anger and destruction that's what I see. Look at every single picture here. Tell me if you see a threat to society in these pictures. Tell me you see a cold blooded killer. Anthony is no more a killer as any one of them young men fighting over seas. Why do we as a people so openly except our young men and women to be trained and shipped off to another country they have never been to for the sole purpose of killing in the name of freedom, yet we will never except one of our own killing in what he believes is a life threatening situation, no this deserves the death penalty. That is unless you are an officer of the law.

It's time we stop the killing and start looking for real answers to some real problems. The only way to stop killing in this world is to stop killing. If the leaders of our country kill in a showing of power, how would you not think that the followers, "the people" aren't going to behave in the same way. Lead by example.
I am not fighting for the life of a convicted killer, I am fighting for a life. A young man, a brother, a son, a grandson a dear friend. Anthony loves, he hurts and he is sorry. I believe this case should be reviewed with respect to all those involved. Have a look for yourselves.
In solidarity. "X"

ANTHONY HAYNES #999330 POLUNSKY UNIT D/R 3872 FM 350 SOUTH LIVINGSTON, TEXAS 77351 U. S. A.

"Hip Hop Against All Violence"

Last year around this time I co-founded and launched the grassroots movement Hip Hop Against All Violence. We debut the movement in Jesolo, Italy. Slum Village, Hip Hop Dance Competition, Battle of the Year, Hip Hop For Humanity International Short Film Contest. In the course of three days some 10,000 people were introduced to Hip Hop Against All Violence. I entered a short film I created and named the same title. Sean O' Grady of One Viisiion edited this piece. The film turned out to be a little shy of the allowed 15 minutes. It was all the time that was needed to take the trip through Hip Hops' life and times with violence. Hip Hop was birthed in violent times, hard times. Upon it's birth it had a soothing effect on the concrete jungle, like a dope fiend hitting that main vien with some good stuff. The party had already started by the time I really started b-boying but it was still early. I was a witness to the early gangs in New York growing up and I got to see the calming. New York was better for a minute, till the stick up kids came a long an jacked the party. I have to say, I would deal with stick up kids over the gangs any day. Homicide rate is much lower. But yea, krews or crews was what you seen every where after the fall of the gang empire in New York.

Don't get me wrong, you could still find some Savage Skulls on Morris Ave now and then or some Chingalings but it was mostly peace and small numbers. Hip Hoppers was taking over the city, so much so the mainstream caught a glimpse of it. After that it exploded into a world wide phenomenon. Peace, Unity, Love and having fun and having overstanding, are just some of the bricks of the foundation hip hop was built upon and it was changing the face of the earth.The film is very accurate but you have to be up on your studies if you're to catch this joint for what it is. Hip Hop Against All Violence which can be seen in it's entirety at http://www.onloq.com/ on "Form the Frontlines" went on to win first place for best humanitarian hip hop film. A tee-shirt design was launched as well. Since January of last year it's debut, Hip Hop Against All Violence has traveled to 10 countries and traveled quited a bit through out the US and it's still picking up momentum. The money that was raised from the movement was used to hold conferences in different elementary, middle and high schools. The efforts were praised by teachers and by politicians as well as many supporters from different communities all over the world. We didn't want to just say hip hop against the death penalty which at the moment was our battle, we broadened it. In the past few year hip hop has attracted a lot of negativity. Instead of peace, unity, love and having fun hip hop has been associated with crime, violence, drugs and sex even murder. We felt this problem was relevant to our cause seeing so many members of the hip hop community wind up in prison or yea, on death row. hip hop Against All Violence was a seed that was planted. An idea that was spoken into existence. It did grow, and it continues to grow. For the second year anniversary I am going to re-design the logo and keep it alive. I am also dropping a new line of shirts with more direct blows to our main objective, to have the death penalty abolished world wide.

We plan on continuing to enter schools to bring about awareness of gangs and violence, drugs and capital punishment as well as the true foundation of hip hop. We teach the original origins of the culture the true meaning of being a hip hopper. We will also continue to enter prisons to spread the word as well as hip hop against all violence did make it into Santa Ana maximum security prison in Modena, Italy thanks to Senza Voce (Voice of the Voiceless) the co-founders of the movement. This movement is non-profit. All monies go back into the movement creating conferences, lectures, performances, benefits and work shops. We ask everyone for their support. You can buy a shirt from my myspace page www.myspace.com/capitalxaka305375 bulk orders for school and groups are welcomed with a discount. Peace and progress. "X"

"The Blak Soulz Dance Krew"

8th Annual March to Stop Executions - Houston Texas



This past October I did my second tour of Texas (you can check out photos of both trips on my myspace blog http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog&Mytoken=CCFA6B66-A036-4369-B1C7319CD80CF52A102344713). I have to say the second time was no easier then the first. It's emotionally draining for real. The stories all so similar. Now I know some are just that stories but a lot of them raise enough doubt within me, that I would at least check it out. That's what KILLS me about Texas, even with the fact that over 100 men have been exonerated from death row, they continue as if they were infallible. We are talking about human lives here. One would think you would investigate every possibility before going ahead and killing someone it's insane.
They say hate breeds hate well what of murder. If our leaders kill without mercy how do you expect the followers, the people not to follow. Killing a murderer is not solving anything. The system thinks well they are preventing further killings by executing a murderer. But how does that stop the next murderer from going on a killing spree. There are no quick solutions. It won't all be better with a shot. We are not being smart at all.
Taking a murderer into captivity and torturing him for 12 to 15 years locked in solitary confinement, then strapping him to a gurney and murdering him with lethal doses of poison doesn't impress me one bit. It's uglier than any gruesome murder I ever witnessed or read about. You want to impress me, take that murderer and make him somebody. make him a lawyer, an engineer or a business owner that would impress me. Most of those on death row that are in fact guilty are not crazed killers. They are people just like you and me that got caught up in a bad situation. Maybe you have lead a life that was sheltered and you have never seen a situation as this unfold. But in my life time I have seen to many. It's easy to get caught up out there. Real easy.
Anyway the march was a beautiful thing it gave me the strength I needed to make it through ten days of politicking all over Texas as well as filming for the Frontlines. Check out the blogs on myspace and think about it. It's a just cause. I want to see the numbers swell this year for the 9th March. Get there!!!


After 10 days in Texas, I jumped on a plane to Europe, my 5th European tour starting out in Italy November 8th, 2007.

Here goes a little taste of what's going on right here in the United States. Put together by Magee McIlvaine of Sol Productions From the Frontlines is just about ready to hit the net. I have been collecting footage for the past two years as well as doing in depth research to expose the truth about our criminal justice system.

I remember the first serious arrest I was involved in I was weeks shy of turning 18 years old. I was placed in a steel cage wearing only my boxers. It was cold and dark as hell. I was bleeding from injury's I had sustained during my apprehension. My entire face was swollen, I took a hell of a beating. As I lay there on the concrete floor I prayed harder then I had ever prayed and I then vowed that I would do something, anything in my power to fight back and change the treatment of people by police and correctional officers. It took me over 20 years of struggling to break free of the yolk the criminal justice system had around my neck but I finally made it, I kept my word. I'm here now.

I have been free now for 6 years. Though I have managed to stay clear of the beast, I do not and will not let my guard down for a second. If you knew the system like I know it, you would be just as cautious. It's to easy to get caught up out there, way to easy. Every year hundreds of new laws are put into effect, a citizen could barely keep up with all the new laws. These laws are like bear traps. Easy to get snagged in, nearly impossible to get out.

I'm not alone fighting for truth, justice and real freedom. I am going to introduce soldiers from all walks of life and from all over the world that have dedicated their lives in some way to fighting in this struggle that was born centuries ago. You will also see a side of hip hop rarely seen in the United States in these days. Hip hop is the dominating culture in many countries with large communities being involved in positive hip hop functions. See b-boys and b-girls supporting me as I confront politicians on the importance of our culture to not only today's youth but to everyone in all communities. Hip hop is respected in Europe unlike here in the states where a larger percentage of people view hip hop as being negative. Hip hop is quickly becoming a driving force behind many movements and causes. Have to remember, hip hop changed the face of the planet once already. Who's to say we can't do it again.

Sitting in that cell back in the days I remember my thoughts being filled with violence. I have to give all thanks to God for guiding me to the proper outlet and means of expression. I am grateful for everyone God has brought into my life to make this all possible not for me, but every brotha I left behind and for every one of my sisters locked in a cage. We have near 2 and a half million people locked in cages. The larger percentage are non violent offenders. I have to ask, what the fuck are we doing? I get embarrassed to talk about our system in other countries. Most countries don't even know we have so many prisoners. I don't think many people right here in America know we have so many prisoners. Maybe I'll just take the camera out and ask some people.

Anyway this is just 1 of a couple of trailers that will be put out while we finish up the episodes for the season. Keep it ONLOQ Peace. "X"

I just realized this morning that it's been six months since I gave up my crib to fight on the front lines full time. I was out of the country nine out of the last twelve weeks. I met a lot of new people, have seen a lot of incredible places and learned so much about too many things to list here. I will say that I believe a lot of progress was made in the last six months.
I just recieved a letter from Rahway State Prison in New Jersey. My brother there is serving 25 years for an array of alligations. As a matter of fact this brotha actually just returned to Rahway where he was placed back into general population (the fucking jungle). My peoples just did 18 months of lock down time (in a 24 hour a day controlled housing unit) in Northern State Prison in Newark, New Jersey. Do you have any idea what 18 months in a unit like this is like? I do. In the letter he said he didn't know how much longer he could have survived. The brotha was happy to be back in main population, fucking happy to be back in the jungle, the programming is so fucking obvious to me. No different then society creating ghettos with areas so bad that individuals are actually better off in prison then they are in the free world. I don't find this to be funny at all. My personal life at times is close to being just that; a situation that even makes prison look good. Yea I still struggle with the prisonization these bastards have inflicted me with. Thank God for hip hop yo for real.
As so many times in my crazy life it's hip hop that's holding me down. It's hip hop that's keeping me focused, positive and hopeful. That brotha I am talking about in Rahway, that's my family right there. I served a three years with him back in the day. We passed our time rocking rhymes battling everywhere in the prison. We would talk about getting out and making it big in the rap game. My boy used to love getting me going when we was locked in. He would bust out beats by banging on the cell walls. The quauter inch steel plate walls at times had the sound of a Roland 808. I would just spit rhymes for hours. He still be asking me to drop lines, so I mail them to him with some pictures. He shares what I'm doing with all the young brothas locked up. I bring them hope.
My brotha serving 25 years has been in and out of lock up since he was 8 years old. I don't know when the last time was that he saw a full year on the streets. He is a good brotha, he is smart and has great talent but, he has been prisonized. He has been conditioned for the life he is now living just like a marine is conditioned for combat and how we are all conditioned to function in a manner that makes society run having police and military to maintain the proper order. We have to fight for the freedom to think for ourselves in this country.
I for the first time in my life because of hip hop let me add, have been blessed with the ability to travel. I write of all my travels to the brothas on the inside. Every time I get a big show or meet someone famous that they admire it brings their hope through the roof. I recently sent pictures to my people of Chuck D of Public Enenmy and myself in New York City. They went crazy over the picture in Rahway State Prison. See they are not talking about committing new crimes or anything like that. They are talking about getting out and making things happen for themselves. They talk about going back to school, starting their own businesses and traveling and I think that's a beatiful thing. If anything for that reason alone all the bullshit I go through is worth it for real.
Hip hop is incredible let me tell you. It kept me going when I was locked up in prison. Writing, reciting rhymes and battling with others. I had a spark of hope to get out and make a living doing hip hop and that's just what I am doing now. I now write to half a dozen prisons giving hope to a number of heads in there that have hip hop dreams. The fact that I pulled myself out of the dark world with hip hop makes for a good story with the young kids as well. I love going to schools to talk to the little shorties, the future. I think it's great that we try and reach them now before they get to the belly of the beast.
Anyway yes, in the past three months I traveled to Europe twice. First time short tour hitting London, Croatia and Italy. This last time 6 countries with the incredible Add.Verse from Lansing, Michigan. It was the best tour I have ever been apart of. Add.Verse is the reason why there is hip hop on the Vans Warped Tour in the USA do your homework.
Add.Verse and Capital-"X". Together we did conferences in schools and for the public. Work shops, print, radio and television interviews and apprerences and shows; some really dope shows. There is a lot to look forward to coming up on the Frontlines in 2008, so don't go nowhere.

Breaking News
Star Ledger: Jersey's proud moment
2007-12-19 - JERSEY'S PROUD MOMENT (Published Monday, December 17, 2007) New Jersey once was justifiably proud of its reputation as a forward-looking state, for its efforts to provide a quality education for all children, no matter where they lived, for encouraging construction of affordable housing throughout the state, for its excellent judiciary. Lately, though, New Jersey more often than not has signified corruption and crime. Last week, New Jersey regained its place among progressive states when it abolished the death penalty. It took both Democrats and Republicans in the state Senate and the Assembly to make the decision, which was heart-wrenching for many. But it was the right one. Gov. Jon Corzine signs the bill today. Men who had voted in 1982 to reintroduce the death penalty -- such as Senate President Richard Codey -- and officials -- such as Hudson County Prosecutor Edward DeFazio -- who prosecute murderers said the time had come to recognize that the death penalty was not good public policy. Assembly Speaker Joseph Roberts put it best: "It is simply not for us to decide who should live and who should die." In an era of polarizing, partisan politics, the men and women of New Jersey's Legislature rose above the mire to do the right thing. � 2007 The Star Ledger

This I have to say was incredible news. I believe I started getting e-mails from the moment Governor Corizine's pen hit the bill. I got well over 1000 e-mails telling me of the victory. I was in Copenhagen, Denmark when I got the news. I celebrated for a minute, but then realized how much more work needs to be done. Next battle.

I will say that for the first time ever I am proud of a politician. In a time where being tough on crime can make or break a political career, this was a courageous move by the Governor. Makes me feel a little bit proud seeing I now rest in Newark, NJ.

It felt good let me tell you. Better then standing up to the school bully and knocking him out with one punch. This was the first time I was a part of something so big. I did everything I knew how from writing to the editor of the biggest news paper in New Jersey, to attending conferences, signing petitions, attending rallie's, protests and even going over seas to ask for support. Having victory after said efforts yea, a big tree of hope was born. We can make a difference. We can get things changed. We just have to organize and get it to where we need it to be.

When I first started fighting against the death penalty people thought I was out of my mind. Family thought I was crazy at first as well. They don't think I'm crazy now. The opinion on capital punishment is shifting and I for one am going to keep pushing. Maryland anyone? Peace and Progress. "X"

Governor John Corzine signs abolishing Capital Punishment in the state of New Jersey.

It's been a minute since I made my last entry but I am back. I guarantee you my absence wasn't due to a loosing of interest. I been busy!
I just got home from a 2 month European Tour and I am actually getting ready for another European tour in April of 2008. I have some down time so I am going to try and play catch up here.
This is the new sticker promoting what I do, what I represent and of course the new show "From The Frontlines". Catch it @ http://www.onloq.com/ and keep it locked there.
So far I got to spread these stickers around 6 countries not bad for 8 weeks of work. They have been making there way across the US as well. Pick yours up at any of my shows or if you order any merchandise off of my site www.myspace.com/capitalxaka305375 you will get some for free with your order. All money made by me goes to the struggle. Every war needs funding and this war I am fighting is no exception so if you believe in it even a little I ask you to counter support. I say counter support because your tax dollars pay for what you think is protection. This protection is what I am fighting against. I don't work for but am a non profit entity. You will never see me on MTV Cribs or wearing an iced out grill fuck that.
A lot has happened in the final months of 2007. I have a lot to write about but for this particular blog I just want to express my gratitude to God and everyone God has brought into my life. I wish I could find the words that would instantly make everyone understand and feel the way I do. Don't get it twisted life is still a struggle, fighting off personal demons and the blood suckers out here is no joke. But beyond all the bullshit, life is good.
In the last six years since I walked out of prison last everything has been a first for me. I was as a new born child only I had a few greys popping out. For the very first time in my personal struggle I had decided to change people, places and things as advised in NA and AA. I had lost everything I had including my apartment, car and wife while I was in prison the last time so starting over was the only option really. It was the most difficult challenge I have ever been met with in my entire life. Living as I knew how was no longer acceptable. I had to get to know myself in a way I never did before.
I realized quickly how much I lost out on in life being as blind as I was. But I could only still be grateful because I was awake, finally. I knew and know many that are still blind to the reality that we were born free. Free to roam the earth and create our own kingdoms. I see things different now, more than I ever have. I owe this to all my new experiences in life. Some are as simple as walking across a college campus for the first time. May not sound like a big deal for a lot of you but when two weeks prior to walking across that campus you were walking across a prison compound it makes for a big deal. I give thanks everyday for all the blessings and blessed ones I have in my life now.
I still suffer from PTSD flash backs and a number of other things I won't get into right now. But these ailments do keep my past fresh in the front of my mind which in a morbid sort of way makes me appreciate life much more.
On this last tour I embarked on I saw the most beautiful sites I have ever seen in my life. It almost made all those years of staring at the same fours walls worth it. I often asked what I did to deserve all the blessings I have been receiving in the past years. I am guessing it's because I believed. I not only believed I could make it out of prison and in the free world, I believed I can make a difference. I am no scholar, no brilliant speaker and I am no Grammy winning performer. What I am is a man with a just cause. A cause that I put before myself. A cause I would fucking die for in a heart beat. This is why I believe God has guided me and brought the people He has into my life and for this yea I am grateful.
Love me or hate me I ask for your support. Fuck how I package it, when you do the investigating you will see this needs to be done. I am not the Creator of this struggle I fight. I am but an extension of the creators, a continuation of the struggle that has been here since the beginning of time. I am fighting for our God given rights. And I ask you to join me. The freedom we live and die for today is but an illusion. We don't have to fight and die for what was already given to us at birth. Even locked in a cell they could not take the freedom given to me by God away. If you sit an take a real good look at what is really going on in this world you will clearly see where the barrels should be pointing.
I don't advocate a violent uprising or bloody revolution though at times I stand in agreeance with others that believed a bloody revolution is the only way. I believe in beating them with intelligence. Them being the power structures that rule society. The struggle continues. Till next time peace be unto you all. In solidarity. "X"