It's been a minute since I made my last entry but I am back. I guarantee you my absence wasn't due to a loosing of interest. I been busy!
I just got home from a 2 month European Tour and I am actually getting ready for another European tour in April of 2008. I have some down time so I am going to try and play catch up here.
This is the new sticker promoting what I do, what I represent and of course the new show "From The Frontlines". Catch it @ http://www.onloq.com/ and keep it locked there.
So far I got to spread these stickers around 6 countries not bad for 8 weeks of work. They have been making there way across the US as well. Pick yours up at any of my shows or if you order any merchandise off of my site www.myspace.com/capitalxaka305375 you will get some for free with your order. All money made by me goes to the struggle. Every war needs funding and this war I am fighting is no exception so if you believe in it even a little I ask you to counter support. I say counter support because your tax dollars pay for what you think is protection. This protection is what I am fighting against. I don't work for but am a non profit entity. You will never see me on MTV Cribs or wearing an iced out grill fuck that.
A lot has happened in the final months of 2007. I have a lot to write about but for this particular blog I just want to express my gratitude to God and everyone God has brought into my life. I wish I could find the words that would instantly make everyone understand and feel the way I do. Don't get it twisted life is still a struggle, fighting off personal demons and the blood suckers out here is no joke. But beyond all the bullshit, life is good.
In the last six years since I walked out of prison last everything has been a first for me. I was as a new born child only I had a few greys popping out. For the very first time in my personal struggle I had decided to change people, places and things as advised in NA and AA. I had lost everything I had including my apartment, car and wife while I was in prison the last time so starting over was the only option really. It was the most difficult challenge I have ever been met with in my entire life. Living as I knew how was no longer acceptable. I had to get to know myself in a way I never did before.
I realized quickly how much I lost out on in life being as blind as I was. But I could only still be grateful because I was awake, finally. I knew and know many that are still blind to the reality that we were born free. Free to roam the earth and create our own kingdoms. I see things different now, more than I ever have. I owe this to all my new experiences in life. Some are as simple as walking across a college campus for the first time. May not sound like a big deal for a lot of you but when two weeks prior to walking across that campus you were walking across a prison compound it makes for a big deal. I give thanks everyday for all the blessings and blessed ones I have in my life now.
I still suffer from PTSD flash backs and a number of other things I won't get into right now. But these ailments do keep my past fresh in the front of my mind which in a morbid sort of way makes me appreciate life much more.
On this last tour I embarked on I saw the most beautiful sites I have ever seen in my life. It almost made all those years of staring at the same fours walls worth it. I often asked what I did to deserve all the blessings I have been receiving in the past years. I am guessing it's because I believed. I not only believed I could make it out of prison and in the free world, I believed I can make a difference. I am no scholar, no brilliant speaker and I am no Grammy winning performer. What I am is a man with a just cause. A cause that I put before myself. A cause I would fucking die for in a heart beat. This is why I believe God has guided me and brought the people He has into my life and for this yea I am grateful.
Love me or hate me I ask for your support. Fuck how I package it, when you do the investigating you will see this needs to be done. I am not the Creator of this struggle I fight. I am but an extension of the creators, a continuation of the struggle that has been here since the beginning of time. I am fighting for our God given rights. And I ask you to join me. The freedom we live and die for today is but an illusion. We don't have to fight and die for what was already given to us at birth. Even locked in a cell they could not take the freedom given to me by God away. If you sit an take a real good look at what is really going on in this world you will clearly see where the barrels should be pointing.
I don't advocate a violent uprising or bloody revolution though at times I stand in agreeance with others that believed a bloody revolution is the only way. I believe in beating them with intelligence. Them being the power structures that rule society. The struggle continues. Till next time peace be unto you all. In solidarity. "X"